Bez Z’s Art Therapy, Pt1, 5/28/22 — Coloring our emotions
How I feel now:
Angry & defensive because being misgendered all the time and bad real world circumstances.  Can’t heal when [I] gotta defend [myself] all the damn time.  Gray around because of the terrible shit in my life.  Blue-green [creature] is best self giving to others (blue for calm, green for growth).  Body is brown blob because I physically feel like shit because weight and gender dysphoria, covered in scars from recent toll, 2022’s new pains.  Lives in shit body.
How I would like to feel:
All blue-green best self me—beautiful dragon with many hands to help many people.  Scars [are still there] but [I am] calm & serene, not easily shaken by the world.  Scars & gray still there, but [I am] better with dealing with it.  Hurt but ready to heal and find a better life.  Yellow for being & having a light in the darkness.
